am 1 philophobia ?

seems to be true.......

Wel..seems to be true...have i ever experienced love?had a bad experience in love..well all in no..no ...no

tak pernah bercinta..hampir hampir..tapi end up in a mess....since then..k..study..study..even kalu ader org approach..antara i buat bodoh...or i run away or aper aper yg boleh kita reject the person....worst of all..buat bodoh jer...tried to meet...yet i'm shy....really solute my friends yg berani berkenal, berkawan n even express their feelings towards the guy and they accept the rejection..at least they try...for me...wow wow..not to that extend..

Yep, i'm still single and a virgin in falling in love...maybe too phobia in falling in love..takut kegagalan...kekecewaan...not perfect adn knowing not the kind of girl a guy will look at....hahahhahah..mampus kalu ader my friends drg....

hmm...k..story gini..recently went back to running..ialah after 1 month tak lari and k..k..lame excuse kan..sebab i have a running event end of this month....so i went back running at hutan rekreasi...there it is...the guy which i notice recently....lama dah tak jumpa mamat tuu lari...kira a crush la...haha....so some how, i wrote this is my fb...

"oh yes....he's the reason and my inspiration why i'm back to my running..seeing him just make my day.yet, when we pass by, i dare not smile or look at him..you make me speechless, oh how I wish u smile at me or even say hi......urs d secret admire."

so mcm maner i'm hampir hampir to my phobia...bila time ader org nak kenengkan i..i will create 1000 excuses tak nak...bila kenengkan with other people idenied....y....sadly i admite i'm afraid to commit and even to fall in love...dont know why ...dont know how..yet ..i'm just puting the hope where i'am able to have the courage to say 'yes' to any of the event...my aim..to make my parents happy and feel easy tat at least there will be someone who can take care of their daughter....how i wish i could fulfilled their wish...

any...kalu i jumpa or terserempak mamt tuu..i will either say hi...smile..or even when people try to kenengkan..at least..i will put a try to it....