to lie or not to lie...

Kalu nak tahu...hidup ini mempunyai banyak dugaan...nak tak nak..kita kene jugak menipu....so jgn la kata tak suka kepada org yg menipu...sebab kita kene memahami mengapa dia menipu atas urusan apa.. dah jika dpt tahu yg benar, jgn pula membenci mereka kerana mereka ada alasan yg kukuh. Terpulangkah kepada kita untuk menerima atau memaafkan mereka. terpulang la kepada kita untuk menjauhi sesuatu hubungan...kerana, mereka menipu sebab salah diri sendiri.....

heheheh

 

To my BFF

Memang sepanjang hidup ni....bermula dari sekolah hinggalah bekerja....am always unlucky to find a good friend...yet....for the pass 30 years...am glad to have a good friend ...a great friend....a best friend a sister..which am confident and comfortable to be with...

dear aeriza...we have known since 1991....we meet...we talk on the phone...we fight..we laugh...u make fun of me....kita sempat tak bertumbuk????mcm ada....hehehe...yet, our friends selalu kata...lagi kita gaduh, lagi kita rapat....kan kan....

yet we are still together....as years past...our life change....i witness your love...your marriage, how you build your wonderful family.....am really proud of you...you are strong...focus and a great cook.....heheh....walaupun jarang berhubung, always wondering wat are you doing at that time.....

as for me....my life change and my road is different from yours....my road are more to education and work..and dedicating my life to my family....and i know, you will always send your prayers for my happiness....well, we have our ups and down.....for me, dugaan dlm mencari pasangan hidup......hmmmm

walaupun jauh ....jarang berhubung...but somehow, we manage to update..walaupun sekejap...tapi cukup to know both of us are doing well....but frankly, i wish we could just sit together and talk and talk...like the old days...even my mum masih igt..oo....your bff yg berjam jam u talk on the phone...and i never regret of doing it...kalu la, dpt call and berbual lama...tapi ....

one day, i send sms to you, telling and thanking you for being there.....now, menumpang kasih with my parents...as they called me....asking me....but when they are gone, to whom should i shower my love? gaduh dgn siapa....going back knowing somebody will be there???what? why? cant imagine tf this happen, yet, we have to accept .....tat's the reason why i occupy myself to be busy....but if this happen, i wish, and hope you will sms me, even when i'm busy.....crossing my fingers....

you send sms of your family photos, tapi takkan aku nak duk hantar muka yg cun nie sentiasa..mesti naik bosan plak....hahah....as you say, kawan disepanjang hdup nie mcm touch and go.....and you will alwyas be in my heart....happily to say it....how i wish, you could read my blog, just to get updates...atleast, i know you will somehow , find the time to read this.....and at least i have a purpose to write....and i promise to myself...at least to update or summarize, what am doing....tapii kekadang, am afraid to update u , what i did and done..takut....you should know...lagi pun, we have successful build our life....our beutiful life, family and career...you are a great wife, mother .....a friend...

dear aeriza, from the bottom of my heart, i would like to say thank you. walaupun kita busy with out own life, our relations are getting stronger by the years.....my words cant describe how we have build our friendship..yet deep down inside, we just know it....walaupun tak kerap berhubung, dont worry, i will always remember you....our time.....

love
your cute sis & bff....
p/s: mesti ko gelak kan....?hahahah....

its all in the mind

Its all in the mind....

Yep....finally..tis year...berjaya lari 21km..penang bridge....non stop...tapi  stop gak masa minum...n a slow run indeed...bila rasa nak give up....keep on fighting ....the run has to go on...

Success indeed....Walaupun not within 3h30m...tapi a satisfaction.....you would know the results till u fight till the end...and accepts what ever the results u get...u hv done d best....n plan for the next...improve.....u failed...nver give up...u suceed....look back n keep on improving....thank you Allah...for being hearing my pains...n sadness during my run....alhamdulillah.....

Cinta..

Sudah pasti....setiap insan yg bernyawa ingin merasai, dibelai, dimanja.. ...tapi tidak semua berkeupayaan untuk memiliki cinta yg sempurna dan indah selama lamayer....

Cinta
Cinta ... sudah pasti hati ingin dicintai,
Cinta ... adalah manis untuk dirasai,
Cinta ... adalah racun dihati,
Cinta ... adalah impian untuk dikecapi..

tapi

Cinta
Cinta untuk maha esa sudah pasti selama ya,
Cinta untuk keluarga sudah pasti dihati,
Cinta untuk rakan akan pasti menjadi memori,
Cinta untuk pasangan sudah pasti ..........

cinta mana yg didahulukan....??

Ada aku kisah???....bila aku tak ada impian???

Memang aku kisah...
Byk Sgt dugaan dtg...untul mencapai cita cita...n impian...tapi tadi masa class...invited speaker bertanya...my answer...I have no dreams...dlm hati..why should I share??...bohong kalu tak ada impian....a simple word....perfect...happiness...bekalan.....dunia n akhirat....

Sejak muda..tak pernah berhenti berdoa....dpt belajar tinggi tiggi-done....kerjaya...done


Tpi...tak pernah berdoa...untuk berkahwin..dpt anak anak yg soleh..sebab time tu m serik kalu bercinta....even pada umur late 20plusss... hati tak buka untuk bercinta...mcm takut...parents tak suka...yep...I have trained myself mentally....heartly...n also with words....reject...avoid...mental blog....tapi lately...konon natak nak ulang..yet...I auto did it again...opps....


Yep satu keputusan yg melulu...tapi ..I'm a typical clasic girl. Waiting for a guy to send signal....Entah ler...bukan rezeki n jodoh....now...alwys include for me to get married..hv children's....tpi kalu dah di takdirkn for me to be alone...let me sorround with friendd n family..dont let me be alone.....

Nothing is perfect...n berhati hati bila berdoa....but...kalu inilah ujian....maka I hv to be tough....wahai lelakI yg pernah n ingin memiliki cinta dari diriku ini...tapi ku tidak bersedia...hati tidak dibuka....tapi...aku mohon...supaya dpt bertemu n mengahwini lelaki yg dpt membimbing ku n kulargaku....dunia n akhirat....

N my dreams....be kumpulkn amal ibadat n complete 5 waktu n katam alquran.....yep...my dreamsssss...be my ears when im in need ...amieennn

Giving up on LOVE

She's giving up on LOVE...tapi tak pernah bercinta...
She's giving up on LOVE...in the past...as she was afraid to accept from others ..
She's giving up on LOVE .... as she's heard lotsa stories about broken marriages
She's giving up on LOVE...current...no men would like to get to know her when her heart is open
She's giving up on LOVE...as she doesn't know where and how to ...
She's giving up on LOVE...she's afraid of rejection....and never work hard for it....
She's givign up on LOVE...when she know she cannot and impossible to find the men which
                                             fulfilled parents requirements
She's giving up on LOVE...as she's getting older by years....

She will not give up on LOVE ... only to ALLAH SWT., families and friends who are truely to be by her side....

 

 



Part 2......title ???

"Wa'alaikummusalam, boleh saya bantu?"..

"saya zainal, saya datang sini sebab datin fatimah...anak datin, "

"ahhhh..bagus bagus..duduk duduk,...dah lama saya tunggu awak datang...pasal citarasa bakal wife awak tu..." dengan pantas rin menyambut kedatangan zainal..

"erm...saya, sebenaryer..." zainal agak terkejut dengan sambutan dan response dari wanita bernama rin...

"Kita terus sahaja aper yang dicari dan ditugaskan oleh saya...ini soalan soalan yg perlu en.zainal baca...alamak"..sambil menghulur file, rin teringat si sally ditalian..

"sally, en.zainal dah datang nie..call you later..bye". "dah baca? saya dah lamabt nie, maka kita mempercepatkan meeting nie..dah baca? dah dapat jawapan? saya akan catit kan, selepas itu, saya akan update dengan en.zainal dan datin sekali. Kami sebenaryer ader calon mengikut kriteria datin..tapi tahu tahu kan la...kene tanya dan padankan dengan tuan punya badan...eheeh" ..gelak gedik skit.

cepat yer minah nie cakap..kalah reporter.."ermm..tapi,".

"tak ader tapi tapi..erm erm...saya ader emergency call tadi..nasib baiklah awak datang...kita mulakan"....hishh, mamat nie nak lengahkan masa plak. tak tahu ker aku dah sejam lebih tungu dia..arghh..tak ader kes yer nak berkenal..straigh to the point jer...senyum rin...senyummm....

Itulah rin. Kalu dah lamabt dan bayak perkara perlu diselesaikan, mesti kelam kabut, dan ade jer bende ya tertinggal dan cacat. Disebabkan baru teringat pasal temujanji, dia terlupa fail yang perlu dibawa dan pakaian dia, main cekup dari emergency session. Kalu dah last minute macam nie, memang dia akan sedia satu ruang untuk saat akhir atau emergency pakaian. Seluar hitam, or skirt hitam dgn blause yang sudah pasti tak perlu digosok. Tudung, main ambik tak kisah sesuai atau tidak. Makeup, hmm...bedak dan lip bam. Rin nie, simple orangyer. asalkan nampak kemas, sudah. Tapi, nie gaya rin baru, dulu rin lain. Kalu tidak disebabkan kejadian itu.

30 minit kemudian
"Terima kasih encik zainal..semua kriteria sudah saya catitkan...akan saya bawa berbincang dah teruskan langkah seterusya.."

"wei enal, teruk betul la tempat nie...susah betul nak cari parking, dah ler jumpa dengan pakcik nie yg tak ader adat langsung..duk main masuk jer parking yg aku duk tunggu...hishh...sucks man". "lain kali, kita bawak motor...hishh, buang masa cari parking, buang masa tersangkut dalam jam...memang Kay Hell"


"k la.erm, en.zainal ader temujanji lain ? bagusla camtu..saya pergi dulu, asslammualaikum. oh ya, air saya dah saya bayar tadi.bye"..rin terus berlalu setelah memberi senyuman kepada rakan zainal.

"aik??abis dah? punya lama kita drive with all the traffic jam, finding parking ..blah blah, duduk pung tak sempat, minah tu terus blah?biar betul minah nie.Kuching dia nak beranak ker aper?"..aris memang tak puas hati cara awek tu terus berlalu. Dah ler kene bebel dengan datin, kene cancel meeting dan appointments. Datang tak sampai 1 minute, minah nie dah terus blah..berkenalan pun tidak? menyesal..menyesal..sambil menggeleng kepala.

"why, why ...enal, ko gantung aku sekrg...kalu tak memang aku rasa, zaman sekrg tak ader adat resam kot. org bandar memang mcm nie ker?salam tak ader..jemput aku duduk pun tak, terus blah ader la. Cancel"..panas hati aris.



bersambung.....

what to write

been 3 months deeeeee....malas tahap gaban..a year has successful added to my age.here's the updates

1. Birthday - checked
2. running events - in progress
3. eating healtier - in progress
4. exercise - in progress...sometimes need to kick the bud
5. study...in progress of applying one
5. love...erm...
6. happiness...- enjoying the fullest
7. moview.. -no body dee..huhu.sob sob
8. social.....ahah...okie la

Title?????

Bab 1

"Hishh, lama yer nak tunggu mamat nie datang, dah sejam lebih.Perut pun dah kenyang dan dah naik buncit perut ku nie dengan air"..hishh, sabar rin..sabar..
mentang mentang ler anak manja datin fatimah, ikut suka hati nak datang pukul berapa. Berlambak lagi keje aku kene buat , bills kene selesai, majlis kene uruskan..hishh...sabar rin sabar..setengah jam tak dtg, aku blah.Pandai lah aku nak jawab and report kat datin and sally tu. Tapi, demi client dan kawan baik mama sally, 30 minit akan dilanjutkan. Handsome yer mamat tu.....

"I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy...", lagu savage garden berkumandang dari handphone n73..potong stim betul...private number?

"assalammualaikum, siapa nie?"
"Hello puan rin, nie aku nie sally. Have you settled and get all the details from the client?" sally bertanya dengan pantas yer.

Dengan hairan aku membalas " eh, amoi, sejak bila phone ko dah jadi private nie? ko nak skodeng siapa plak? takkan tak percaya kat si kitty ko tu?."

"Ello makcik, aku dah lama dah subscrite to private number. Amnesia makcik nie dah datang balik dah!!!..penangan dari ko accident dan MIA nie tak sembuh lagi ker? urghh!!." Tapi aper nak buatkan, rin memang rakan kerja yg kreatif , rajin dan effektive. tak macam pekerja lain.

"Nie, makcik ko lupa nak bawak gambar anak datin fatimah dan profile dia. ko dah jumpa dia belum?how's the client?did you get the list and requirements from him? I've a list of girls which fulfilled datin requirements. Yet, siapa yang akan khawin kan. so? " ..dalam hati sally, dear god, please make sure everything goes well. Terasa menyesal plak sally menyuruh rin bertemu dengan anak datin fatimah.Tapi siapa lagi yang boleh layan kerenah datin dan kerja tip top, kalu bukan rin.

Amoi nie cakap laju macam keretapi, gelak rin dalam hati sambil mengaru kepala..tak berenti dan tak sempat aku nak pikir, gerutuk rin.

Pap!" Profile?Gambar? Adusss, patut pung aku rasa lain macam jer..lagi pun, dah sejam lebih aku menungu mamat tu..tak muncul muncul.Aku dah try call mamat tu, tapi tak dijawab. Demi kau, aku sanggup lanjutkan 30minit lagi..hehehe..erm, arinie kan meeting dia dan dekat restorant delights kan?" rin berdoa, moga moga ape yang dikatakan itu betul. kalu tidak, ader kene sembelih lagi dengan amoi nie. Amoi amoi,nasib baik ko kawan baik aku sejak dari sekolah lagi, tapi...bab keje, salah sikit, keretapi akan jadi machine gun nie..sally??

"Assalammualaikum, puan rin ker? saya zainal"..

"wa'alaikumusalam..." siapa pulak yang menyampuk nie?

Bersambung.........

New Year...new me?

Happy new year....2012..AAlhamdulillah

Enjoyed my new year with family...dad, mum , bro and nephew..just the 4 of us....resolution?azam..what can i ask more...yet the same thing but with added new resoution...

1. Running...bila agak yer nak maintain my running
2. Study...waiting..in process
3. Career -alhamdulillah...am happy with it..
4. life...happy, yet lonelly....adding in my next resolution
5. husband & marriage ..yep...opening my heart to any eligible bachelor or aka future husband....hishhh..kekdg terasa sunyi.....as a person..even i knew i should show my love more to my creator...yet what can i asked more, just to give some assurance to my parents...at least i'll not be lonely ..temporari dlm dunia ini....

6. to become a better muslim..in progress..walaupun ader mengelatyer..huhuhu...
7. happinesss???am happy what i have done....my failure..my hapinness n sadness....what can i ask more? to equipt myself bekalan for akhirat plak....in progress....insya allah....

i used to wish something and when it happen, i will pay something for it... and when it been fulfilled....i have to fulfilled my promises...and for next wish..am still thinking of what i can give back?hmm.....takut plak tak dpt nak tunai janji....oh goshhh.....

what do i expect, more bekalan for akhirat and dunia...marriage..and kids...hapiness to my parents and family....and being a loyal muslim to my creator.....able to stand up and be positive when i am hit by thunder/ rocks....will seek my creator first for guidance for hapines and sadness....ameen

p/s: learning arab...isnya allah...