maybe its a choice to choose the priority 3, where i have to choose islam, career,education or relationship...when my prayers to felt in love and giving my heart a chance to experience relationship, my education stop....i was busy with couple, msg, texting.....you taught me a lesson....its been 7 months i stop progressive my research which is equivalent to my 'relationship'....which i have disappointed my dear supervisors...rest assure, i'm gradually on my track....never cried over a split milk...
Terima kasih, dan alhamdulillah...gradually my feeling toward him lessen (since he never called or msg..and i do not want to get answers from him anymore).....i know and i wish my prayers are meet....i tried and i choose my education....yet, being a human and me...i hope am able to keep what i promised..even hearts have to be broken including mine....a baby step and its not easy...never been easy....yet cant say much.....its easy said than being done...just keep on praying and the faith.....
when heart say A, yet the action will do the B...and the verbal will be C...yes..i'm not stern with this 3..and most to whom i told my stories are confused with me and us. When we are happy, i just keep silent, when we fight...i tend to tell and seek opinion from my friends..knowing me not having a perfect characters and expected compare to other ladies....maybe i failed as a partner or maybe coupling is wrong?hmmmm....
i hope, to be silent with the relationship with everybody.....hopefully nobody asked and if they do pop the questions....either i divert or just give a smile.....yet, kalu dah jodoh with him....i prayed for him to have a future, a responsibilities for his future families, a good financial stability...a good islam practitioners and support my education and career as insya allah i will support his career and our families.....
ok..crossing fingersss.......
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